Hobbies

Nobody wants to be that person. What person? THAT person. You know, the person who has hundreds of cats and does nothing for free time. The person who has nothing to show, but the one thing they are good at. It’s great to be a master at one thing, but to constantly obsess over one subject could make or break you. The only way to fix that is to have a hobby. And that is what I am lacking.

I have a sketchbook, but I don’t draw enough to really call it a hobby. I know how to sew and I do make clay figures and jewelry, but again, they aren’t exactly hobbies. I don’t know what my problem is. It could be the fact that I’m just not motivated to do anything. And that’s what I’m scared about, the lack of motivation. What drives people to get going?

For some it’s their loved ones. For others it is the fact that others don’t believe the one person is “good” enough. And yet again other people are just born with the drive. I personally have to have people say that I suck. I need that negativity to prove people wrong. It’s some kind of sick enjoyment getting the positive out of something negative. I actually believe in myself more when someone does not believe in me. But those people have to be strangers or minor friends.

If my husband, mom or best friend said that I couldn’t do something, I’d break. They are the only people who can drive me to keep going by being positive. And now I have another person who could help drive me. The problem is, I really don’t know which way my child can help me. I sure hope it’s a positive way. The last thing a person needs is their child saying that they are a loser.

Anyways, people need hobbies. You need a hobby. I need a hobby. I think hobbies probably help that creative drive for the other things. It’s a way to prevent burn out. My problem is, I just need the drive for my hobbies.