It is at our worst that we see the people who know our best.
I have just lost two friends and I had no idea how it happened or why. I know that I hurt them, and for that I am deeply sorry and disappointed at myself. In a failed attempt at getting answers, I contacted a loved one of theirs and messed up badly. Instead of trying to get information and showing sincerity, my emotions got too strong and I came off as a stuck up bitch. Once again, I feel deeply sorry and disappointed in myself.
That’s the problem with humanity. We do not communicate well under stress or in general. We all assume something is going on when actually nothing is. We are all paranoid and we are all scared of each other. Sadly, we are all victims and culprits of this.
I know now that I should just leave everything alone. I tried and seriously, I could have tried better.
For people who think someone isn’t being a good friend, tell them. They probably don’t know. For people who think they are being a bad friend, apologize. It’ll be better to get your emotions out now while you still have that person in your life. For me, I’ve probably lost a few more trying to fix this situation.
Don’t repeat what I’ve done. It’ll be better if you just get everything out in the open than trying subterfuge or some other ploy to find out the whole truth. I feel like an idiot, but I’m not going to stand down.
There is a reason why I say I lost two friends. It’s because when you lose something, you can always find it again. I just need to stop the trail of breadcrumbs and opt for a less edible device to find my way again. With time, I will find them and they will find me.
I just wish they know that I am still there for them if they need me.
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